So real qquick here: I bought my horse. My parents, as an early graduation gift, gave me money to pay most of the shipping so he's here. I spent way too much on him, I don't have the time or money to really deal with him, but I love him to bits and I spend every second I can working with him.

School is starting soon. Wish me luck.

Sorry guys-
i kind of let xanga die. I'll try and post here every now and then, but facebook has finally stolen my soul.

Let's see.
I'm at college now. I'm actually enjoying my classes, which, for those of you who knew me in high school, must be a big relief. I'm not into the social scene, mainly because I don't enjoy partying and smoking pot. I came to college for school, I already had my social life in Ireland, I don't need anything more. That being said I am trying not to be anti-social. I learned in Ireland that I need a social scene. I need to have people to talk with. Not always, god knows I love my single room on my quiet floor, but occasionaly a chat and some tea is necessary.

I'm desparately trying to ship my favorite horse from ireland. My old favorite/husband/love of my life and reason for my existence, is hapily retired. I still love him very very much and visit him every day i'm home, but I fell in love with a younger horse overseas, and if I can find a shipper for under 7000 usd I'll try to buy him. Any help would be appreciated (if you know a horse transporter PLEASE let me know... orif you have an extra couple of thousand dollars that's just taking up space...)

what else?
Things take time I guess. I'm not in a hurry to be crazily in love with my college. I'm enjoying it so far. The weeks are very long, but interesting. I'm taking: Chem 103 (it's killing me) Econ 101, Eng 240 (Yeats Joyce and Beckett) and a freshmen seminar on the Forms of Dialogue. I'm looking into joining a chamber group but otherwise avoiding the Conservatory like the plague. I've practiced a few times. I refuse to push myself though. My subconsious knows best and I think that if I trust myself I'll be able to come to some conclusion regarding the cello. Like i said, everything takes time.

I miss my cat. I miss my horses. That's about it.

Cheers.

Let's just say that while this was not the happiest eight months I've spent, I'm glad I did it. I am actually starting to enjoy myself and have learned so much, mainly that you'll never learn life's lessons when or how you thinnk you're meant to.

Today, an incredibly bad day at work, I was suddenly overcome with grief for a friend and mentor who died a year ago. I don't really know why i suddenly started thinkoing about him but out of nowhere, a few minutes ago I thought of his name and started crying. Not hysterically or uncontrollably, but quietly. Single tears rolling down and dropping on my dirt-streaked jeans. I stopped the dribbling by reminding myself that tears are bad for my super-sensitive laptop. I still don't know what brought it on, but I now am going to cut this short so I can go home and cry properly.